It's been a good run. I've had a really amazing time. I've met some awesome people. Tried some once in a lifetime things. And really grown and changed (much to my resistance) for the better. But now it's time to go.
On Thursday I leave for Ohio. I've decided that since I've been so open about the place I am going to, I will acknowledge my California location. As if I have any reader who don't actually know me anyway, and therefore know the many details of my stories. The aliases really are more for fun than to hide anything. I still will use codenames for a lot of the places I mention, but one thing that is going to be key is differentiating locations and where I met people. And I also want to say how I miss good ol' CA. Because I know I will. I'm going to miss living in my beach city. I'm going to miss having Disneyland with a reasonable distance. I'm going to miss my great weather. But most of all, I'm going to miss the people.
I've heard it said that Cali people are rude (and for the record, i'm not sure how i feel about the term Cali, but its convenient so we gunna go for it- side note: I've also heard the Cali people use a lot of abbrev.) Compared to the Midwest, that's probably true. And a lot of people out here are self serving, image conscious, and aggressive. But those aren't the people i'm talking about. I'm talking about my friends, my family, my cast of characters as listed on the right, the people i've gotten to know and love over the years and the people that I'm already looking forward to visiting during Christmas. So to everyone, most of whom I've already bid my farewells too, I say my favorite form of goodbye: See you when I see you.
Looking back on my week, I was taking a lot of steps to reach those levels of closure I want from my time here. I've been spending time with Tenshi. I've been wrapping up my transition letters for work. I've been eating at places and chains only found here on the West Coast. I've been trying to have that "last hangout" with as many people as I could. So here's how I did it this week.
Monday was my last DnD night with the guys. Tuesday was a night with Tenshi, trying to make the most of our last time together, Wednesday was time spent with my old staff. We went to a certain burger joint that's only out here. Thursday was a night out with Alejandro, RC Tequila, Brock, Bridges, Kareem, and Settler Type. Friday was packing day and Saturday was move stuff home day, as my folks and sister came up to help me move things. Saturday also was Pokeboss' 21st birthday celebration, which I will describe below.
And then there was today. Today felt like an important day in finding closure. Today I went to Disneyland, and it was University Day at Disneyland. Now I've been part of the University for 6 years, as a student, a staff member and now professional employee. My dad went here and so the tradition's been in my blood forever. The University has been a big part of my life, and I plan on spending some time Tuesday really saying goodbye to it. But to spend University Day at Disneyland, doing our tradition cheer and call out, with people who have shared this experience with me, my last Dland and University tradition day, really felt good. Tenshi, Dungeon Daddy and Heavy Spy all joined me as we met up with King Wrangler, Terrific Craniac, Math Magician, and many more for a hot, happy day. We rode rides (once last time for me until December- I still have a pass), and talked about our time spend at the University, we caught up, we just had a blast. It really felt like a good bookend to my time here. Fall Girl even was kinda enough to drive me home. I feel today, satisfied, with what i've done during my time here and ready now to start looking toward Ohio State.
There are still things left to do. For one, I have a ton of packing left. For another, I have to spend some more time with Tenshi and my family. My family in particular is a group I don't really worry about. I think I take them for granted, and I want to change that. But they are such constants in my life, so wonderful and amazing, that I'm not worried about losing touch with them because they will always be there for me. I am going to try to spend all of Wednesday with them, before I leave on Thursday. So Soon!! But I'm looking forward to some fun times and how great visits are going to be! And, afterall, as I keep telling myself, it's only 2 years.
Regarding Pokeboss' birthday. Pokeboss is one of the oldest in her group of friends, so she doesn't have many people to help celebrate 21 in the more traditional way. On the other hand, she is terrified of alcohol, but open to it. So after some bad experiences with wine with her family, she tasked to me and a few others to introduce her to alcohol without destroying her. I feel we made good progress. A margarita, a mojito and a hard cider for the evening, not enough to get her even much buzzed, given her pace of drinking but enough to say here's what alcohol is like, do you want this? Captain Peanut, Shyly Sue Hoo, Noble Dancer, Shy Rider and Tenshi took her out to dinner and the back to my place for some "Asshole" the card game I taught them in training that is really a drinking game, but they didn't know. Now they know. It's funny seeing the youngins growing up and remembering my own first drink when I turned 21.
Yes, I was and still am a pretty big rule follower and didn't have my first drink until 21. That night, my friends blindfolded me, wandered me around campus to my friend P-Diddy's (she was the person that lived in singapore if you recall and now lives in DC), where she, El Bandito, and Mother Mapster bestowed upon me some nice Vox vodka, a shot glass and some Dr. Pepper. My first drink was straight vodka chased by DP. I hated DP before and this did not make us friends. The vodka, however, wasn't that bad. And mind you, I to this day, don't take shots properly and thus taste it before I swallow, it doesn't just go down the back of my throat like I'm told most people do. So the thing I thought was going to taste like rubbing alcohol only tasted bad. I had a mere two shots that first night, and after a bar visit a week later, found out my annoying high tolerance for alcohol, that sometimes gets me in trouble when I don't feel the side effects but suddenly am very drunk. When you can drink enough alcohol to kill a small child but don't even get that buzzed, you're bound to cross that limit sometimes. My limit is somewhere around 12 shots... Not smart choices. I talk about this because one I'm feeling reminiscent. Two, I'm feeling like sharing my alcohol experiences to others, both to my shame and pride I suppose (never play quarters with me). And three, because I'm leaving behind some drinking buddies and not sure what I'm going to find in Ohio. I know alcohol will be common place, but I don't know the people there. I don't have that same companionship and comraderie that I associate with drinking. I'll be starting from scratch. Though I suppose people may be more accepting of my allergy to beer (Before you ask, It's the hopps, it makes me feel super sick to the stomach with very very small dose and it runs in my family). People here think I just made it up because I don't like the taste. And while it is true I don't like the taste, thats largely because I have been unable to acquire it due to my poor experiences with it. And who needs beer. Whiskey serve me just find. If only more places served hard cider like in London and Ireland...
Well I don't know what else to discuss. I haven't been sleeping well at all, stressed about all the things coming up. Friday night I only got 3 hours of sleep, finally passing out at 730 am. I've been reading a lot of the Game of Thrones books and that also has done more to keep me up than calm my mind. At one point, I was reading and playing video games at the same time! So it's time to close the book, literally and figuratively, pack my bags, and make my journey way out East, to the land where people flip out over earthquakes but where the snow doesn't just stay in the mountains where it belongs. To the land of kind smiles and no traffic. To the land of new experiences, classroom time, homework, new friends and an important step I know I must take in my life.
God, guide me, help me and thank you for everything you have given me here. I know there will be pain and joy, but it is through you that I will make the most of this opportunity and learn the latest things that you have sent into my life. Thank you and may my guardian angel help me travel safely. Amen.
See you on the other side!
-JTY
Reading: Storm of Swords by George R. R. Martin- Math Magician says this one is his favorite. I'm inclined to agree. But man is it a bloodbath.
Playing: Fallout New Vegas now and forever it seems. Clark is definitely going to miss the ps3.
Listening to: Leaving on a Jet Plane- John Denver. Kinda a sad song, I know. But leaving is bittersweet. "Tell me that you'll wait for me!"